THE JOURNEY BEGINS
Hello and welcome back to my blog! This week has been somewhat stressful for me. It’s not like I’ve had a to-do list a mile long but it’s the self-doubt and mental anguish that I’ve been putting myself through that is getting to me!!! This week I have caught myself wondering, “what good is going to come from this anti-cruelty journey?” “Am I really going to make a difference?” “Whose really gonna give a crap about what I’m doing?” I can go on and on.. but, when this onslaught of negativity filled my mind, I had to put on the mental brakes for a second and answer each question I had for myself:
- “What good is going to come from this anti-canine cruelty journey?” My answer: I have no clue. All I can hope for is the best and hopefully something good comes from it.
- “Am I really going to make a difference?” My answer: I don’t know. Realistically? Probably not, but then again, if I can change the perspective of one person then I’ve accomplished something. All it takes is one person.
- “Whose gonna give a crap about what I’m doing? My answer: More than likely, no one. However, I can’t let that stop me. What really matters is the action I am taking by painting. I don’t care what others think of me and I know people are going to hate me for this but that’s ok. They can hate me all they want. This is me doing my part. It is my passion and I will pour every ounce of my heart and soul in it. People won’t care but that doesn’t mean that I should stop caring about the fight against canine cruelty. I’m just gonna paint until I don’t have to anymore.
After answering these questions, I came to realize that I had no true answers and I was just tormenting myself for no reason. I don’t know what’s going to happen on this journey, all I know is that I just got to paint as much as I can for as long as I need to. This is a life-long mission and I will be prepared for whatever comes my way, good or bad. Let the journey begin…
That’s all for this week! In next week’s post, I’ll give you guys a behind-the-scenes look on how I’m preparing for my first live advocacy painting demo at a local street fest. Cya next time!